Let Music Guide You Home.

There was that moment of clarity for them when everything else fell silent & only their presence mattered. She had never felt so shy & he hadn’t felt so unsure about himself in years. They both just stayed where they were, not wanting the moment to die just yet.

“..Tune out everyone in the crowd, because now it’s just me and you, Come fall in love with the sound..” – Pins & Needles. The Deftones.

She thought it was lovable when he tried talking to her, he thought it was adorable when she’d laugh at what he’d say. They were happy. Everything just seemed better this way.

“..You make me feel like I’m living a Teenage Dream..” – Teenage Dream [Katy Perry Cover]. Boyce Avenue.

Within a couple of years, they had a fallout. She could not understand why he couldn’t slow down. He couldn’t understand why she didn’t want to think about the future. He couldn’t comprehend what she wanted & she couldn’t explain it herself. She couldn’t fathom how he was so sure of the future, how he knew it would work out perfectly because ‘I just know’ wasn’t good enough for her. By the end, she couldn’t give something like this a chance. They ended it, not knowing what they were losing. Not knowing how much this was gonna hurt them.

“..I, can feel it all start slipping away, I think I’m breaking down..” – Stupefy. Disturbed. 

It had been months since she’d seen him, & she no longer wanted to think about him. He had hurt her too much. He couldn’t act like everything was okay after what they’d gone through because he still couldn’t understand it himself, so he abandoned her completely even when he said that they’d still talk. Everything they had was lost. Gone. & was, in their minds, never coming back.

“..Burning whispers, Remind me of the days, I was left alone, in a world this cold..” – World so Cold. Mudvayne.

They both had tried hard not to think about each other, but there were too many memories. From the moment they had seen each other right down to the moment it all fell apart felt like a dream. They needed to talk. They needed answers. Above all, they needed each other.

“..You, you used to have all the answers, & you, you still have them too..” – VCR. The XX.

They finally met again by chance. Once again they felt the same way they did years ago, but something wasn’t the same anymore. They ignored each other, but even in that half empty elevator, they both couldn’t help but smile. ‘Stopthinkingabouther’ he kept saying over & over to himself. She couldn’t stop imagining what would happen if he spoke to her after all this time & that itself made her slightly hopeful .. but this temporary feeling of elation wasn’t enough. He exited the floor & the pain returned.

“..Look in my eyes, You’re killing me; All I wanted was you..” – The Kill. 30 seconds to Mars.

She had given up hope. All those things she had said when she would cry herself to sleep were lies. He had never cared. She had never wanted to to hurt him, she had never wanted to lose him. All those times she convinced herself that meeting him would make everything better fell to pieces. She just didn’t know what to do anymore. Why didn’t he say something?

“..Who shot the bullet, that killed the air tonight? Without a thought, without a reason..” – Bullet Theory. Funeral for a Friend.

All day long, he couldn’t stop thinking about her. Why did he have to notice her again? Why couldn’t he ignore her like he wanted to? He shouldn’t care anymore, everything was gone. So why was he waiting for something to start again?

“..Lightning strikes, Inside my chest to keep me up at night; Dream of ways, To make you understand my pain..” – Heartbreak Warefare. John Mayer.

He finally knew what he had to do. It was 3 in the morning but now, he realized that nothing mattered anymore.

“..I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe..” – Edge of Desire. John Mayer

She opened the door & he stood there. Their emotions gave them away. They couldn’t lie to each other anymore, their eyes wouldn’t let them. Without a word, he came & took her in, holding her close. “I’m sorry.” was all he whispered. “Me too” she replied “for everything”. Neither of them wanted to pull away.

“..& it’ll be Love, love, love,  All over her face,  & Love, love, love,  All over mine..” – In Five Year’s Time. Noah & the Whales.

They fell asleep holding each other close. They could talk later. Right now, all that mattered was that they were in each other’s lives again. He loved her & so did she. They always had. Nothing could change that.

“..If I lay here, If I just lay here, Would you lie with me and just forget the world?..” – Chasing Cars. Snow  Patrol.

The End.

* This was all inspired from Seema Subash’s blog post “Let the Music Heal your Soul“. 


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